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December 10th, 2007

01:10 am Hold up there you go again Puttin on that smile again Even though I know you've had a bad day Doin this and doin that Always puttin' yourself last A whole lotta give and not enough take But you can only be strong so long before you break So fall go on and fall apart Fall into these arms of mine Ill catch you every time you fall Go on and lose it all Every doubt every fear every worry every tear Im right here Baby fall Forget about the world tonight All that's wrong and all that's right Lay your head on my shoulder let it fade away Current Mood: calm

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December 9th, 2007

01:22 am I work the next 3 days. Well I should say 2 and a half because I'm at work and I'm about halfway done with this shift. After this stretch I think I'm going to go upnorth for a couple days and clear my head. We'll see how that goes. I still don't know what I'm doing for Christmas. I haven't really bought anybody gifts yet. I'm behind... I haven't been feeling so hot. Not like sick, but just down. Working is helping though. It's keeping my mind occupied. When I'm hope alone in the basement by myself for hours.. not good. I want to write a lot more.. but I'm gonna keep it to myself. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Staind- Ephiphany

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December 8th, 2007

06:00 pm Thanks god I work the next 3 days.. I think if I didn't I would probably go insane. I'm dreading Tuesday night. Karma is a bitch. Current Mood: nauseated

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November 26th, 2007

02:47 am I don't know if I've ever been this tired.. I'm sitting at work. When I woke up this afternoon I felt TERRIBLE. I felt like I didn't sleep at all. My throat hurts. My head hurts. My back hurts. My neck hurts. My eyes hurt. Fuck this. I hope I can make it home. Coffee.. you might be my lifesaver. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Duane Eddy- Rebel Rouser

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October 31st, 2007

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October 28th, 2007

03:49 am Coming to realizations is harder than you think. I really hope this all works out. Current Mood: cold

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October 9th, 2007

01:37 am - I'm across the hall from a Starbucks, in Beaumont. Classy! Pushing 2 months since an update.. Oh well. I've been okay lately, I've had a change of heart towards the whole "anti-relationship" thing I've had for awhile now. It's weird feeling all this again though. I've been like this for a lot longer than anyone thinks and it's weird to have these feelings again. They come back so naturally but at the same time it's almost too much... in a good way. lol Work's been treating me good. Tonight though.. not so much. It's been rough. Lots of blood and shit and.. grossness. You don't even wanna know. Me and my dad are finally at peace. Me and my step-mom seem to be getting along pretty damn good too. That's awesome, I was sick to death of us ignoring eachother. My little bro is upnorth for a week, I'm gonna miss him. I've changed my major again. I was going for nursing, now I'm going for respiratory therapy. Very close in the pay scale, a lot easier schooling, and not as stressful. I'm excited about college all over again. It's a good thing. Life is good right now.. I just hope this one thing I want to work out.. works out. It'll make life that much better. Current Location: Work Current Mood: tired

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August 19th, 2007

10:24 am Today's so depressing. I woke up at around 10 and looked outside, fucking still raining. Depressing days like this make you think too much, and no one is awake to talk to me.. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Rain.

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July 29th, 2007

07:15 am Who has The Simpson's Movie on his hard drive right now?? ME!!!!!!!! I'll be watching it tomorrow at work probably. =D Current Mood: Tired, and still pretty buzzed

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July 23rd, 2007

02:30 pm I'm now officially a employee of Troy Beaumont Hospital!! Just got the call 15 minutes ago. I'm beyond excited. It pays $13.23 an hour, and still not sure about the benefits. I get a physical on August 2nd, and my orientation starts August 6th!! Current Mood: ecstatic

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July 16th, 2007

09:38 pm Haven't posted in awhile. Since my last post I've moved back down to Ferndale and got a job at a place called United Manor as a "night companion" it's a bullshit job and I don't do ANYTHING, but it's money in the bank. I've made a friend or 2 and seems like I've lost 10. I don't know what it is. I'm wondering if I've changed upnorth and people aren't used to me? I don't know. I don't think I changed. It's starting to bug me though. I had a job interview at Troy Beaumont Hospital last week and it seemed very promising. Over 13 dollars an hour. I hope I get it. I'm trying to decide if I want to go to MCC or OCC. I'd prefer MCC because it's less prereqs to get into the nursing program, but it'll cost more because I don't live in Macomb County. We'll see how that all goes. I still need to make a phone call or 2. So far this summer has been filled with working midnights, partying, riding my motorcycle everywhere, (I love that thing) and spending money. So far so good. Me and my dad still aren't talking. That sucks a lot. I just need to call and make good with him. I just got back from camping with a bunch of people up near Graying (yea, where I used to work) It was fun as hell. Non-stop party all weekend. I'm going to try to start writing in here more often. I always say that but never do. I need some incentive. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Frank Sinatra- I've Got the World on a String

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April 12th, 2007

02:58 pm So I'm sitting in the KCC library. Finally making some steps to getting my ass back downstate. I've been doing some research on schools I could go to downstate. I checked out MCC, OCC, WCCCD, HFCC, and Wayne State just for kicks. The school that looked best for their nursing program was MCC. I just need to see which one doesn't have a waiting list for admission into their program. We shall see. I half ass applied to Beaumont Hospital online. I didn't have all my old employer info. I'll finish it when I get home. Sherry called me about an hour and a half before I had to go to school and told me to call her at work when I was on my way to school. So I did and I couldn't get ahold of her. I know her and dad are pissed at me. They thought I was sleeping last night in my room about 9:30. My dad came downstairs and woke Sherry up off the couch and started bitching about how I didn't put wood in the fire and how HE had to clean up the dinner mess (which wasn't bad AT ALL) His exact words to Sherry "That fucking asshole thinks he can just come home from work and go in his room and not do a damn thing" After I work 12.5 hours, and he sits at home and does whatever the fuck he wants. He was just pissed off about cleaning up dinner. He didn't say a word to me this morning and I didn't say shit to him. This is just stage one of me moving out. I'm not purposefully pissing them off, just me living there and not doing things he FEELS I should be doing will be enough. No matter what I do I will always be doing something wrong. That's the problem with my dad. He looks for the bad in everything. You could clean the house spotless and if there's dust on the entertainment center he'll find it and say "missed a spot" and mean it. Now that's not right. Current Location: Kirtland Community College Current Mood: okay

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April 5th, 2007

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February 14th, 2007

09:38 pm So I got the job at Mercy Grayling Hospital!!! The place I wanted to work before I even got my CNA certificate. So now I have 2 jobs! Ha, that's the 1st time that's ever happened. I'm gonna quit King (the place I'm working at now) when I start in Grayling, they just don't know yet.. lol Fuck em. They're facility sucks anyways. I'll be working full time 3 12 hour shifts a week. Which I know will be a little hard, but I can handle it. I'll get health insurance, dental, optical, prescription drug coverage, the works! Now that's awesome. I haven't had health insurance in 2 years. It'll be my own too! All this is just so exciting for me. I finally feel like I'm doing something really good with my life. Life is just good right now, I finally got the job I've been wanting for 2 months, I have an amazing girlfriend who I'm ridiculously happy with and I'm gonna see her very soon, and I might be able to move out on my own with the money I'll be making at my new job. Current Mood: cheerful

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February 12th, 2007

10:03 pm I just got back from my 1st day at work. It's called King Nursing and Rehabilitation Community. It's a nursing home. It seems like it's a huge clusterfuck up there, but I guess that's just how they role. Whatever, I'm praying to god I get this job at Mercy Hospital in Grayling. I interviewed with them this morning. I need to now go call my girlfriend and go to sleep because I have ummmmmmmmmmm... 2 tests tomorrow. Then work.. Get bust living or get busy dying, eh? I like that quote. Current Mood: drained

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January 11th, 2007

05:57 pm - I'm beginning to hate it here. You know what it's like living upnorth? It's like a fucking emotional rollarcoaster. One day everything's cool, I'm happy, everyone's happy. But the next day. Chaos. Everyone's pissed at me, I'm pissed at everyone and all I want to do is move back downstate. This is one of those days where I want to leave. I don't know what to do though. If I move back downstate I won't be able to go back to school till the summer semester, but I'll be able to work fulltime and save up some money, which is good. You know what would be nice? If I somehow managed to obtain like 100 thousand dollars. Then I could get the fuck away from my parents and move to wherever I want to! I could live on my own. That just sounds like heaven to me right now. Living at home blows. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Norma Jean- Disconnecktie

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January 8th, 2007

09:59 am FAFSA=Bitch What a pain in the ass. I'm workin on the fucker right now and I'm getting quite impatient. They better give me some money or I'm gonna bust some ass. Current Mood: FAFSA.. Yea

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January 6th, 2007

03:54 pm What a change of events! This Saturday's gonna be good afterall! Current Mood: happy

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12:04 pm - Saturdays are supposed to be FUN! WTF It's Saturday afternoon and I have nothing to do. That's pretty much how it always is up here on the weekends. They're pretty depressing. The only time it's fun is when we have company and I was fucked out of that this weekend. I cleaned my room, unloaded the dishwasher, cleaned up the living room, got wood for the stove. I think I've ran out of things to do. Now I'll sit around like a bum for the rest of the day. Sigh.. I need stuff to occupy my mind or I'll lose it. I'll go stircrazy. I've also decided to write in my livejournal again. You probably won't see a lot of my posts because they'll be private, but I'll post.. you know, good things that aren't fucked up crazy or angry. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Frank Sinatra- One For My Baby (And One More For The Road)

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January 4th, 2007

05:01 pm I've had a Livejournal since 03. That's insane. Sometimes I wish the Myspace takeover never happened and we all still wrote in our LJs.. Sigh.. If you read this comment, I want to see how many people stuck to their roots. Current Mood: tired Current Music: The Postal Service- Iron and Wine

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